Random Filler

July 25, 2008

Shave Me From Myself

My 'hood is filled with cute ladies sporting shorn heads. Yes, there are plenty of adorable pixie cuts and mini-bobs, but mostly I long for the machine-even fuzz of a newly buzzed scalp. That was some fun hair to have, let me tell you. Low-maintenance (unless you factor in having to crouch in the bathtub for husband-inflicted haircuts), sexy (I think!), striking, and above all fun to rub. No greasy bangs oiling up the forehead; no too-short-to-ponytail bits going stringy along the back of the neck. Those were good days. See old, old pictures. Man, I was so very much younger then. Like, seven or eight years.

Anyhoodle, a typically sweltering Philadelphia summer, now globally warmed for her pleasure, brings back fond memories, and a slightly itchy clipper finger, if you know what I mean.

There are several things stopping me. One is the demoralizing experience of having to look like Javier Bardem for the better part of a year when I decide to grow it out again. The second is that I finally have enough hair to clip in some extensions, Jessica Simpson-style, when I want to wear a messy chignon (read: wad of plastic hair). If I don't put it in a bun, the effect is more Confused Hair-Metal Band Guy, with an occipital-length layer over a mullety mid-back fall of chestnut waves.

Other factors in my thus-far successful struggle to keep the clippers in the closet include the fact that I said to myself, I said, Jo, I said, you're gonna grow your hair out now, and you're gonna do it right, with regular visits to a stylist, because you know, it's starting to go gray pretty darn fast, and if you like being a natural Chocolate Copper (the label on my fake hair, which matches my own perfectly), well, you better enjoy that while you can. So there's that.

There's also the possibility of incipient Pregnant Lady Face Puff. It doesn't seem to have set in yet, so maybe it won't (ha! And the baby will slip painlessly from the Tunnel of Love while I stand in line for an almond croissant!), but if it does, I find myself wanting a little frame around my face to offset my broadening, W.C. Fields-ening nose.

Finally there is the myriad of Bad Pregnancy Hair Choice stories I have heard -- many involving actual head-shaving.

Have you -- or has anyone you know -- ever made a Bad Pregnancy Hair Choice? Should I shave my head and just buy a wig for those need-to-look-marginally-sophisticated days? If your face spreads in pregnancy once, will it do so again, or does it vary by pregnancy?

I need some answers.

June 20, 2008

This is Just to Say

I have eaten
the anchovies
That were in
the tiny can

And of which
you would probably have liked
to have partaken
.

I regret nothing. I got
sixty percent of my daily allowance of sodium
in one sitting
and it was fucking
awesome.


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In other news: boob in good shape, nasaline up and running, rhinocort access from HMO a project for another day. However, the midwife coverage looks like it shan't be a problem, glory hallelujah. Shall we celebrate with a tiny yellow can of fish?

Yes. Yes, I believe we shall.

June 02, 2008

No Offense

If you have read thisahere blog for more than a week, you may have noticed that Being Offended is, for me, more than a hobby. It's like a poorly paid part-time job, unless you consider excess adrenaline and flying spittle a form of payment. (I understand that some of you do. Depending on the context.)  Vaguely sexist comment? Omission of same-sex partners from pregnancy book? I am all over that shit.  Left your white ballcap on inside a fancy restaurant?* I can recite Judith Martin, chapter and verse.

But I don't, of course, as that would be rude.

That said, I have lately been mulling over the lot of things that -- shock! horror! -- do not offend me in the least. To wit:

  • Being told that I'm white and therefore will probably never "get" certain things. (Tip to fellow white folks: arguing this point usually proves it handily.)
  • The body odor of a clean person. (It's summertime! In Philly!)
  • Kindly intended, gently phrased comments on my parenting from friends
  • Other families at the park having different park rules (shoes on, shoes off, don't swing on your stomach, etc.)
  • Certain people's refusal to embrace Lost as not just a show, but a new way of life (Gretchen, I'm looking at you)
  • People speaking other languages around me (some people get really het up about this. I don't get it.)
  • Anything Joel McHale says

So what theoretically offensive things leave you grinning indifferently?




*A not uncommon faux pas in university towns.

May 12, 2008

So I Finally Saw Juno

And you know, I actually liked it a lot.

Some thoughts:

-Really glad I watched it at home with Sean instead of in a theater. We were a handpicked audience of people prepared to Get It in a lot of ways that Joe Microbrew Six-Pack wasn't going to, and I'm glad I didn't have to listen to audience reactions.

-Because it was actually a far more nuanced and subtle movie than it got credit for. Well, to us it was glaringly obvious, but maybe to other people, subtle. By which I mean:

-The first scene with the adoption lawyer? Blindingly exploitative. Sharklike maneuver to turn it into a closed adoption with no discussion? Immediate drawing up of paperwork? Icky. If I recall, some figured that was because Juno was so empowered, but I read it otherwise. WAY otherwise. Someone in a position of power taking advantage of someone else in crisis. And it seemed so obvious to me and Sean, that this situation was NOT a healthy one -- but that this is how it can play out, absolutely. And we took it as unflattering and accurate commentary. Apparently we are in the minority.

-Adoptive couple: creepy. I can't believe anyone thought Jennifer Garner's portrayal of Vanessa was compassionate; it was spot-on, absolutely, of a winched-tight certain-type-of-mommy, and very well and complexly played, but if anybody thinks this is what most adoptive mothers are like, yeesh. Perfect for the part though.

-I read a defense of Jason Bateman's character Mark's skeezy behaviors as midlife crisis stuff, oh, somewhere, but I am aghast that anyone would excuse the way Mark acted. Again, another reminder that the various parties in an adoption are NOT on equal footing, and that it is so easy for one to abuse power. Abuse of power can be a very subtle thing.

-Most reviews cited a "scary-smart" Juno. Well, I thought she was awesome, and wonderful, and intelligent, and quick-witted, but honey, if that's what you think scary-smart is, you must have spent high school hanging out in Tantopia. Juno reminded me of myself and all my friends in high school -- and the fact that she's being hailed as such an anomaly is, oh, I guess evidence of the patriarchy at work still. Women not funny. Women not smart. Anyway.

-It felt like, storyline notwithstanding, someone had made a movie about teenage Sean and teenage me. If we'd known each other. I really liked those characters. I believed everything they did, you know?

-I also thought Juno's parents were really well played. Yeah, they said and did some fucked up things -- like making teen pregnancy out to be worse than hard drug addiction (if somewhat jokingly), and sort of hustling things along with regard to the adoption. At the same time, they clearly loved Juno and didn't shame her. Bren (Allison Janney) was especially great -- she commented right at first about how Juno didn't know what she was getting into (with childbearing), which read a little bit like, this is going to be harder than you think, this adoption thing. And she was very aware of the power differential with Mark, and the inappropriateness of his behavior (and the playing-with-fire nature of Juno's).
They seemed very real, and very human.

-Even though I knew how it ended, right up through the last scene I couldn't help believing that Juno might decide to parent that baby. Obviously I am in the minority of Americans here, but I thought she would have made a kickass mom. I was bummed that she didn't feel equipped (and with mother abandonment issues, I can understand) and that society and her family offered no support for that decision. I would have liked to hang out with her at the park, you know?

-It was a good movie, but it wasn't a funny movie. It had funny parts, yes, but overall it was a deeply sad movie. I'm guessing most of the U.S. of A didn't get that, and didn't get its critique of the process (which may not have been there in the writing, from what I've heard of Diablo Cody, but that did make it into the directing). Did it end on a happy note? I don't think so. It ended on a wistful note. I couldn't help but see into the future for those two good kids, the dead spaces inside, the blotted-out memories here and there. Maybe  they were fine; maybe they weren't. The movie ended before we got a chance to see. And the narrative arc was over a single year, four seasons, so I'm prepared to take the movie as it is. I forgive it its flaws, because even people who were enraged by it pointed out that it was indeed accurate -- it just stopped before a lot of the ugliness kicked in.

-Which is why the discussion that followed was such an important thing. I think it's possible to enjoy the movie for its humanity, to feel moved by it, and yet not come away thinking, "Wow, adoption is perfect! For everyone! Let's never change a thing!" In fact it kind of shocks me that anyone would see that as the take-home message, but...eh. It doesn't shock me that much. People like a quick and easy fix, and this is so much more complex.

-But in the end, I really liked the movie. And I almost cried through most of it. I cared about the people in it, believed they were real for two hours, couldn't quite wrap my head around the fact that the ending was a foregone conclusion. The only wish I have is for the rest of the world to wake up to the fact that life doesn't end where a movie does -- and that nothing, in the real world, needs to be a foregone conclusion. The problem isn't with the movie -- it's with us.

May 09, 2008

Hrk

I had no idea that jawbreaker surgery would be such a hot topic! Obviously it's off the table for a little while, ultrasound willing, but the more I think about it the more the Rocky-style swelling seems like it might be worth it to bite a hangnail again.

Also we would have to retrain Thrusty McTonguerson. Heh.

I am happy to report, in other news, that I am passing-out tired and mildly to moderately nauseated at all times, today. And that the dried ginger flakes that seemed like such an awesome idea yesterday are NOT, because any sweetness whatsoever is just not okay, and I am going to have to live on baked potatoes with plain yogurt for a while. 

Yay!

April 16, 2008

Sophia is taking a "nap" in the other room, although frankly there are a lot of clanking sounds coming from that direction. And now someone, I can't imagine who, is rattling the door like an unjustly accused character in a bad prison play. Hmm.

So here's this, about bisphenol A and how the powers that be are kinda sorta waking up to how awful it is. Props to Canada too. May we look forward to a world in which we are not assaulted by hormone mimickers at every turn. Amen. And thanks to Sonya and Ann for the tip.

Um, what else...well, I have just a couple things to do (complete project outline for class tonight, prepare for LLL meeting, go to store and buy #%@&! goat milk that seems to be out of stock everywhere, make supper, clean house just a teeny bit) by 6 p.m. so I'm gonna run, but I'll leave you with this note that I have written in my head to the usually awesome parental denizens of our neighborhood park.

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Dear Hipster Dads, Devoted Mothers, and (one hopes) Adequately Paid Nannies:

When I am watching three children under age 3 at the park, and one of them drops a truck that one of your kids left at the top of a play structure, narrowly missing somebody's head, despite my shouting and ultimately unsuccessful efforts to prevent aforesaid, it is absolutely unhelpful for you to shoot dirty looks at me and my charges and mutter obviously nasty things in various languages. It is also charmless when you see me (shortly thereafter) strap the kids into the stroller and 1) roll your eyes and 2) heave theatrically obvious sighs of relief at each other. I can see you, you jackasses.

Thank you.
&c.

Side note to random daycare ladies we passed as we left the park:

Saying "my, aren't those children big to be riding in a stroller!" will earn you no points with me. (Or, I imagine, with the empathetic crowd at the park.) I hope the gaggle of children you're guiding across the trolley tracks get in a Sharks-vs.-Jets altercation with the kids already in the park. Then every last adult in the goddamn place can blame the others for their out-of-control children.
Best &c.

April 06, 2008

Why You Totally Want to Take Me Out in Public

Exhibit A
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Setting: Trader Joe's checkout line

I see the checkout guy has a nametag that reads "Bananaphone." Rather than calmly note my approval, I shriek: "OH MY GOSH BANANAPHONE! AAAAAHHHH!" And proceed to have an animated, LOUD conversation with the teenagers/twentysomethings on checkout about the various animations, the different versions, which websites were best all re: bananaphone. The other shoppers seem neither informed nor enthusiastic.

Trader Joe's being the kind of place it is, all is well, but...yeah. Dorkin' out hard to the core.


Exhibit B
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Setting: Philadelphia Zoo, rainy morning

School groups are settling in at the tables to eat their lunches, and near one seating area I see two or three boys, maybe seven or eight, approach a duck. One throws a piece of bread toward the duck.

Me: (thinking) Hmm, maybe he's trying to feed it.
Kids: (converge on duck again)
Me: (stopping in tracks) Um, with extreme prejudice.
Ringleader Kid: (hucks another wad of bread at the duck, makes contact with duck's head.)
Other Kids: (much guffawing)
Women who are apparently charged with care of these kids: (nothing)

Now to imagine this properly, remember that my redneck roots run deep, and that erudite as I may be in the confines of my apartment, I am capable of pulling a pitchfork from my genetic backpack and busting out a gargly, accented, grammatically questionable bawl. Okay? Okay.

Me: (top of lungs) HAAAAY!
Kids: (wha?)
Me: I KNOW I DIDN'T SEE YOU THROW BREAD AT THAT DUCK'S HEAD!
Kids: (scatter)
Women who are apparently charged with care of these kids: (look up dumbly like cows in a field)

And we saunter on, Sophia and I.

I have no idea where that sentence came from; it welled up from the same swimmin' hole as the "Don't you ever let me catch you running in the street again!" that sprang unbidden from my nineteen-year-old lips during one babysitting-heavy summer. Anyway I usually leave other children to their caregivers, except as emergencies warrant, but, shoot, I am never one to let animal cruelty pass. File under "Natural Consequences": adults will freak out at you if you try to hurt an animal and you are damn well old enough to know better.

It's a nice moment when you realize you wield the Power of the Mama.



Exhibit C
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Well, there is no exhibit C, except that as anyone who's ever spent any time with me can attest, I am loud and goofy and super-dorky, prone to braying and bumping into multiple objects in succession. I think it's like taking a particularly dopey Irish setter and its enthusiastically sweeping tail into a house filled with knickknacks, except that the Irish setter can talk and will tell the joke until you acknowledge you've heard it, even if you don't think it's as funny as the Irish setter does. Arooo.




March 30, 2008

Until Somebody Calls the Copsen

Man, do you guys rock. I have a bookstore list THIIIIIIS long, and just as soon as I'm over this cold I'll sell my kidney (well, one of my kidneys*) and hand the proceeds over to Barnes&Nobazonowell's.

So, the cold. Sophia seems to be on the other side of it (although the cough is apparently ours to keep), and I'm tired as a mofo with a sore throat of the type one might expect in a novice sword swallower. It's fun; I start the day as a throaty sex kitten and go to bed as a drag queen done up as Bea Arthur. I might call my mother and threaten her with Shady Pines for a while.

I have shit to do, peoples, but the stats homework and the T-Tapp (sorely neglected this week) will go begging. Sophia got a big girl bed today, and she is now sacked out in it, but Sean and I have to deal with the snowstorm of styrofoam beads, the shantytown's worth of cardboard, and the remains of the crib. We won't stop until somebody calls the cops. Or we pass out as though surrounded by an invisible sea of Milwaukee's Best cans. Say, that 'minds me: we were listening to that song in the car, and after it was over and we were into some Peter, Bjorn and John, Sophia piped up from the back seat: "I want the Copsen song!"

"Copsen?"

"Yeah, the copsen song! Somebody call the copsen!"

Ahhh. Yes.

Tomorrow I'll tell you about the other things I did this weekend: namely two articles of clothing sewn by me! Maybe also some recent knitting pictures. Yes. Good times.




*Do you read a lot of David Sedaris?